Profile Of The Clueless
Friday, July 29, 2005
The night has fallen, the skies have deepened. Here I’m chewing on a loaf of wasabi packed sauage bun for supper. Appetite should be on a low but however; I seem to be chewing the food without much hassle. I’m quite disappointed in myself for rushing into matters. Nevertheless, I’m moving on. Ultimately, I’ve to be strong in the inside. Setbacks are meant to be taken seriously as a lesson and not as a demoralizing factor. I understood that feelings between human beings couldn’t be forced. Hence I chose to alternate my thinking. I’m puzzled.
The dilemma here is whether to persue or to remain as it is.. I’m a very realistic person. I do not want the opposite party to be fond of me because she’s touched by my actions. Most importantly, the person must be interested for who I am. Maybe this is why falling in love is so god damn difficult. Presently, I’m taken aback by her words. I am glad that I didn’t lead myself on, or saying the wrong stuffs to the friend of mine. So what’s next on my “to-do list”? Of course friends are there to be, talks are meant to continue. I guess I have just got to take it to my stride and re-think. I know this sounds confusing. I guess god’s right, let nature takes it course. If it’s meant to be, it will be, if it’s never meant to be, no matter how hard you try, it will never be.
I guess again.. I guess this is just life. A life full of dilemmas and obstacles. I smiled. :)
Take care lex.