alwayz

i need some air..

2007-06-28T01:38:00.000-07:00

Ever since she chose christianity over me..
I'm a backslider..
can't find a justification in the bible
-Christians not to date a non-believer-
Is this fair?

We spoke everyday, Exchanged Messages..
Gave me good bye kisses each time i send her home..
..behaved as lovers but we're just friends..
Thou i knew its impossible

Some christians wouldnt mind dating someone else..
Where is humanity?
I need a Teacher!!
And not a pastor..

Last night i made my stand
we should behave as friends..
This goes against my feelings..
Am i right in doing this?

I guess this is how it should end..
to shower love & care by her side..

This / That..

2007-05-04T07:02:00.000-07:00

This post is dedicated to Sarah.

This friend of mine .... has a fun and easy going personality. I must say knowing her for the past 11 months has in fact formed an indelible mark in my life. Unlike the past where romance fills the air between us, now we live as friends. On the emotion aspect of a human being, it’s pretty much difficult to treat her as a friend when everything else says we should we more than we are.

Being a friend, she sure plays her part in showing care and happy moments with me. Though we seldom meet, I do enjoy her companion on the phone. Without fail, we would contact each other exchanging msgs and talks. To be exact, we practically understand the ups and downs of the other party.

I really look forward to receive her msg each day. – As long as she is doing fine, I’m contented. I love her rosy cheeks whenever she smiles or turn shy.

I realized that a platonic friendship between the opposite genders like us can never exist simply because of a reason...

How I wish to exterminate all these illusion and relive memories. But I know for certain – Reality can never be banished and memories maybe forever forgotten.

Nevertheless, let’s just be happy enjoying each other’s company. I’m just a phone call away.

PS – u still owe me my bday present!! =)

Recovered?

2007-05-02T05:17:00.000-07:00

I've been slping at 4+5am lately. Been trying hard to sleep but couldn't. Why?

My ankle seems okay to me but however rather stiff. I wanna play soccer!! can't wait..

I dread going back to work.. pile of emails to clear and work to follow-up.. Surely get nagged again..

My dear friend.. you gotta buck up n work hard.. plz wake up k..

Shall talk of you no more.. maybe what you say is right.. - "Why should i blog about you"

Gone with the wind.. in the mist of the seas..

walking aimlessly....

2007-04-23T03:03:00.000-07:00

In the mist of my 17days MC, it was you who’s came to my mind. Thou days sobered, shadows enlightened, I long for a moment with you. I live in deep remorse filled with regret. Then, I realized the pain of losing someone so dear. Life became meaningless – I lived the hours alone. With you, there is something I look forward to. Without you, my eyes were always covered with tears.

Every night I sniffle myself to bed – the days of “I love you” before bedtime vanished into thin air. Even though we talk long hours, but the atmosphere turned different. You just walked away and leaving me in the dark cold room. I miss your warmth. Remember the memorable cable car dinner we had on our 5th month? whenever I looked to the photos beside me, I could hardly sleep. I don’t wanna be like your brother, I don’t wanna be your best friend, I just wanna be your lover, When will this end?

Today maybe our 10th month if we are still together but a month ago, you left my arms. You spoke apprehensively that day mentioning why we couldn’t be.

Seemed to be I’m destined to be without you.

When will you be back?

- walking aimlessly.

left with a tear

2007-03-21T06:07:00.000-07:00

Things arent the same anymore.
It couldn’t get any better.
She suggests,
its over.

Photographs aside thy bed,
As I weep a tear
Living in this misery,
The end so near.

The reason is clear
God paths thy way
I should have understood
I should have followed
I chose the other way.

Forsaken the past,
Reminiscing the memories
Why must thy say,
I love you much so.
You will live in my heart
till the day eyes closed
I cant let you go.

-left with a tear.

better to be late than never..

2007-02-07T06:50:00.000-08:00

i will never fail to keep a promise. unless i have a difficulty. =)

NS = no life

2007-02-07T03:02:00.000-08:00

3 things about Camp,

Rank
In the army, we got to give respect to people of superior rank. Meaning to say if ah kao is of higher rank than you, you got to pay respect to him. This also mean that if ah kao says you are in the wrong, you cannot say you are correct. You are convicted as the scapegoat. Who in the world lives in this? Yes you are right.

Work
Well, work in the army is such that, we NSFs do “shit work” for our superior. They delegate work to us, we do, end of story. go home. Do wrongly its our fault, stay back Over time. Work well done, its their credit. We get nothing.

Friends
Ultimately, I must say friends from the army are people who are nice and are buddies. Unless for those who live the army with a wrong attitude.

Grievances

2007-01-16T08:06:00.000-08:00

Grievances... i must say..

My officers in my camp are not supportive of me and chose to hear the doctor's side of the story. i'm deeply upset that NSF are been treated with such inhuman acts. The chief clerk told me to pack my stuff and bring my belongings to camp tomorrow and be prepared for Stoppage of Leave(SOL) minimum. In which a charge will carried out against me with regards to my behaviour mentioned in my earlier post. What great disbelief i feel! simply because i slammed the door which constitutes to public misconduct. and my superiors refused to listen to the reasons i vent my frustration. I feel very maglined by the punishment i'm facing but ultimately, there is nothing i can do, just because i'm a NSF, a lowly ranked soldier.

Peace out. Can someone help me?

- out for at least 2 wks.

upset..

2007-01-10T06:48:00.000-08:00

Boo.. its me again after a period…

I must say there has been a lot going through my head and I would like to share with regards to what has happened.

It was on x’mas day in which I came about knowing this. I was hugely taken aback, shocked and somehow petrified. On the brighter note, I knew that for all had happened, I’m fortunate to have someone by my side.

I have been maligned and am in great disbelief to have been charged on 3 offences: malingering, slamming the door and using profanity by a doctor at CGH. It was only till Sarah’s friend who told her about this; else I would have been kept in the dark. He is a medic at Selarang Camp - An unpleasant one.

Sometime back in December, I went for my medical appointment at CGH. A doctor attended me and he spent 5 to 10 seconds observing my X-ray before seemingly confidently claiming that my Metatarsal Stress Fracture on my right foot had been healed. I was silently doubtful of his medical proficiency and professionalism due to the fact that the previous specialist had spent at least 3 to 5 minutes providing me with the diagnosis while this doctor seemed to have been able to tell everything in less than 10 seconds. I was also exceptionally concerned because SAF MO once overlooked my injury.

I informed the doctor about the slight pain I had been feeling in my left foot and he requested for an X-ray/Scan to be performed on me that very afternoon. I told him that I was not free to carry out the scan at the stipulated time, and I was questioned about the reason behind it. What he did was more of demanding me for an answer suspiciously, in a tone that made me feel like a suspect under interrogation; I was not treated with the respect that any patient should. Nevertheless, I responded, unaffected by the tone he used on me, stating that I had an NS commitment, to which he responded that medical checkups will cover all NS commitments. He insisted on wanting the scan to be done that very afternoon although it could very well have been performed at a later date, as carried out by previous doctors from the same clinic.

When the doctor questioned me again about the reason for not being able to perform the scan that afternoon, I told him, once again, that I could not make it, this time being more specific about what was holding me back - Sarah. This was true, because I was going Christmas Cohesion Shopping with my colleagues, which she was going to join. He came to the hasty conclusion that I was malingering just because I mentioned "girlfriend" after NS commitments. Moreover, I’m not obliged to disclose my appointments. I feel greatly insulted that my integrity has been doubted.

The doctor then agreed to perform the scan on another day and I was told to wait outside his room. The nurse then told me about the details of the bone scan and the $140 medical fee alarmed me. I was shocked that he had not sought my opinion before filing for a bone scan - I then re-entered the room when he was available and asked him why I needed a bone scan instead of an X-ray. An X-ray would be cheaper and besides, the previous specialist could recognise the fracture in my right foot with an in-depth observation from the X-ray film. The doctor did not justify his decision, giving a sweeping statement that a bone scan would be able to determine everything in detail. He did not even bother looking at me while talking, an obvious display of his lack of respect and basic etiquette. Neither did he offer me a seat, ironic since he was supposed to know of my medical condition.

I asked, "Are you going to pay for my bone scan?" He then replied, saying that he would write a memo to the SAF MO I/C and await his reply. I was frustrated by his lack of professionalism and unhelpful attitude, and I felt discriminated against because I was a serviceman. I left the room, ticked off, slamming the door. I exclaimed at the front of the registration counter, “What kind of attitude is this?” Thereafter, I proceeded to the Human Resource Department to lodge a complaint. As CGH does not have the necessary equipment to perform the scan, the doctor wanted me to travel to SGH to do a bone scan on that very day and return to see him thereafter. It was 1.15 pm and traveling to SGH for the scan and back would have taken hours. I would not have been able to return before the clinic closed. The traumatic state I was in was entirely, if not mostly, caused by the doctor’s attitude towards me.

The doctor also claim that I had used profanity; he has, once again, insulted me, by insinuating that I could not find a better way to express myself than to spew vulgarities. If he would like to stick by his claim, I would urge him to gather witnesses as support, if not his claim would not be even remotely valid.

On X’mas, I learnt that I was going to be charged by the SAF MO with regards to this incident. It is disturbing how the doctor took pains to inquire about my camp origin so as to prosecute a charge against me, and that he did so on the very day of the incident. Could this be discrimination against servicemen or me in particular? Moreover, despite being medical-in-confidence, the doctor informed my SAF MO who took the pleasure of spreading to many people from my camp about my medical complaint. Colleagues from the Medical Centre now look at me in bad light because of this incident.

I had always thought of doctors to be dignified people, helping others and saving lives, but this incident has completely changed my opinion on that. This doctor did not treat me as a human being - I was not shown the care and the respect I rightfully deserved.

Where is justice in this world? Should I get punished for a mistake, of which military law protects civilian doctors? Why are doctors stereotyping NSFs?

I’ve been having sleepless nights over this issue. Eye bags, dark rings, dull emotions arises upon. When will this end? I apologize to whomever I offended during this dark period of mine.

But I most certainly must say, whenever I see you, I smile.

Thanks for being by my side. =)

Moments to remember..

2006-11-27T07:57:00.000-08:00

Thursday
It was last Thursday, the sweetest moment of my life. It rained in the oddest hours of the day. Water droplets falls faintly on my palm as I looked beyond the skies saying, “ will the rain spoil my day?” Fortunately for luck, the sun shone brightly on my forehead-signifies cheers, smiles and fun. For once I knew, Thursday’s going be my day, our day.

Was I late?
I ignored her advice to travel by bus. Instead, I was walking swiftly along the streets towards my girl’s front door. I pondered, “Will this be my night?” Traffic junctions I passed as I walked, I perspired. “What a way to begin my evening!” I exclaimed. As I approached the fantasy beyond my wildest dreams, the lift door opened. My heart was beating as fast as a speeding bullet. From afar, I saw a gracious-looking swan appear from sight. I paused and smiled. She’s gorgeous. I had her hand around my arms and finally, this fantasy isn’t a dream after all. We boarded the taxi and headed to Mount Faber thereafter.

Mount Faber.
I was hurrying the taxi driver to speed up, panicking we would be late. Along the way, I was admiring her face, the dress she’s in and her lovely rosy cheek whenever she smiles. Upon reaching the rise of our special moment (the hill), she fell asleep onto my shoulder as held her gently in my arm. Soon, we arrived at the peek of the hill, Mount Faber. She kept insisting that she was over-dressed for the occasion. Fair enough, it was our 5th month. I held her hand as we walked up the stairs towards our dinner. Along the way, we took a couple of photos as memories.

Sky dining
After the snapshots, it was time to board the ride of the evening. Yes, we are having dinner inside a cable car. That’s right, sky dinning. First course was tomato soup served with bread. The soup was warm-boiled served and the bread was toasted to its crisp. We took photos along the ride towards Sentosa and back. The scenery was magnifying pleasant. We watched the sunset in the cable car together as we enjoyed each other’s quiet moments. The second course was steamed-dory fish with mash potato and vegs. I hoped that the serving was bigger cause I had a big appetite that night. But most importantly it’s the person in front of me who is more important. Without her, this evening wouldn’t be whole-heartedly complete. We also had house wine with the fish as we toast to our happiness. Finally, the first course was apple crumple and coffee/tea, accompanied by a surprise for her. A bouquet of 3 lilies, which says, “ I love you my dear”. We went around the cable car for the last and final return before we left Mount Faber unbearably. It was a great evening dining with her.

Smiles
It was a wonderful evening well spent with her. We walked down the hill hand-in-hand. Softly I whispered, “I hope you enjoyed this evening as much as I’ve enjoyed, thank you for making it special with me.”

Lastly
Will you love me still in the morning?

I will, for you.
lex

i'm helpless..

2006-11-25T00:13:00.000-08:00

Unknown, uncovered, unrestricted. Those are the 3 words which distant me from her. I know for once, I was the spark to the cause. I only have myself to blame. There’s a saying, which goes, if you hold onto something too tight, the more resistance you will expect from it. It will walk, run, and fly. But if you let it go, it will eventually return to where it belongs. Having someone is like a pet in a cage and not about possession. Let it walk, run and fly. In due course, the person will return to you. Caring overboard towards someone will lead to unsettled emotions and being paranoid. I’m sure no one would want his or her love ones to feel so. I’m saying this because I love her so so much. God please forgive me on this. If love’s a sin, let my sin alone for my mistakes. I just hope everything will be back to normal.

Ouch..!

2006-11-18T10:21:00.000-08:00

My worst nightmare has yet to be uncovered. I’m injured once again. Suffered a stress fracture on my 4th metatarsal bone on my right foot. Ouch!. Thankfully, it doesn’t hurt as much as before.

Sarah has been so nice and sweet towards me lately. Bought me a Man Utd Jersey and also sent cakes from Angie choice to me. Simply love her loads.

Well its 2am now and I’m watching soccer. Cant get to slp as I’ve slpt 3 hours in the afternoon. Oh well.. time to go.

Also, happy 17th birthday Brother Rex!

P/S: Brigitte thanks for dropping by. =)

I want Nokia 7390..

2006-11-04T04:13:00.000-08:00

This is from Sarah,

"Dearest Walnut :)

It's been a pleasure getting to know you over the past 4 months and more to come. you have been my pillar and source of strength and i really thank you for it.

* DISCLAIMER: If i ever try to grab your head and bite it off, forgive me, because you're one irresistable looking walnut.

Love Sarah e one & Only
"

On top of this piece of paper.. there is a really shocking .. i shall leave that to our laughers.. =)

Love Sarah loads.

Signs off.
lex

Blogged..

2006-10-29T05:15:00.000-08:00

Dear diary

This entry I shall talk about my life in general. In life, people come people go. Some say “hi, lets be friends” Some say “No”. I realized that many are just passerby in life. But however, it’s about the moments we treasure which make friendship, kinship, and relationship worth remembering. Ultimately is how one can be happy, being cheerful and most importantly, stay positive always.

Friendship is based on communication and respect. Kinship builds on internal love. And relationship works on chemistry and affection. In general, if we are able to juggle all wisely, life is worth living. The joy, which friends bring into me, is simply irresistible. For example, each friend gives me a sense of belonging. They are there for me being playing, joking or as a company. Friends are there when you need them and that’s why I really must say to all my friends out there, “ Thanks for being my friend”

Kinship relates to my family. I love my family truckloads. My parents are currently overseas and I miss them (sometimes I feel good too, cos there is no nagging). Having a aunt living with me is so funny. I enjoy my brothers company as well. When can we go overseas as a family again?

Relationship. Okay. Equals someone special. And that’s none other than Sarah. Like kinship, Sarah is someone whom I really treat as an important person in my life. Although there maybe hiccups or bad minds, but I always look forward to seeing her each day and telling her how much I love her. Imagine that there is someone out there who cares for you and love you as much as you do for her. It’s just so amazing what love can do to someone. Thanks for the surprise dinner you bought for me today. It was really sweet of you! –kisses- Not forgetting the walnuts.. haha i know you love walnuts..

In short, thou I have NS commitments, people to share thoughts, I just wanna lead a happy life like anyone would have wished. Nothing in this world is worth the love shared with everyone around me. =)

Whats up?

2006-10-28T09:34:00.000-07:00

Dear diary

This entry I shall talk about my life in general.

In life, people come people go. Some say “hi, lets be friends” Some say “No”. I realized that many are just passerby in life. But however, it’s about the moments we treasure which make friendship, kinship, and relationship worth remembering. Ultimately is how one can be happy, being cheerful and most importantly, stay positive always.

Friendship is based on communication and respect. Kinship builds on internal love. And relationship works on chemistry and affection. In general, if we are able to juggle all wisely, life is worth living.

The joy, which friends bring into me, is simply irresistible. For example, each friend gives me a sense of belonging. They are there for me being playing, joking or as a company. Friends are there when you need them and that’s why I really must say to all my friends out there, “ Thanks for being my friend”

Kinship relates to my family. I love my family truckloads. My parents are currently overseas and I miss them (sometimes I feel good too, cos there is no nagging). Having a aunt living with me is so funny. I enjoy my brothers company as well. When can we go overseas as a family again?

Relationship. Okay. Equals someone special. And that’s none other than Sarah. Like kinship, Sarah is someone whom I really treat as an important person in my life. Although there maybe hiccups or bad minds, but I always look forward to seeing her each day and telling her how much I love her. Imagine that there is someone out there who cares for you and love you as much as you do for her. It’s just so amazing what love can do to someone. Thanks for the surprise dinner you bought for me today. It was really sweet of you! –kisses- Not forgetting the walnuts.. haha i know you love walnuts..

In short, thou I have NS commitments, people to share thoughts, I just wanna lead a happy life like anyone would have wished. Nothing in this world is worth the love shared with everyone around me.

=)

Wad a day..!!

2006-10-07T04:19:00.002-07:00

Wow.. today was a wonderful day. ha i woke up at 10.30 went to big bookshop to check stuffs for sarah.. after which i went popular but still.. the 5-yrs series is out of stock.. i took bus 291 back to tmart where she came n meet me. we took bus 28 to her mum's new work place.. finally i get to meet her mum.. haha her mum was super friendly luh i must say.. she look young.. like mid 30s. she sure noes how to retain her youth. haha sarah kept saying she look old.. wad nonsense.. haha who would say her own parent old.. hahaha kiddin.. anyways.. after passing photos to her mum at her work place, we went OCH. not orchard my dear.. its Old changi hospital. ha the place is locked. we only went to the ground level and she was scared i tink and left. lol.. after that we went to pungol for some haunted house thingy.. on the way there.. we met my Warren officer, louis on the bus with his family. haha he said that the my gf is sweet.. hahaha i know.. i have good taste.. *grins* When we reached that haunted house. it was fenced up. end up we took a stroll etc.. and took bus back to her hse. haha.. this is how it ends.. i hope that the guys who has been "harassing" my gal will stop cuz even i feel disturbed by their actions. but wadeva it is, i trust me gal n i respect my gal's way of handling her friends. i love Sarah. muah..

1 mth ago

2006-10-05T07:19:00.001-07:00

its been 1 mth since i last blogged. blogging has been a on-off routine for me simply bcuz i m too busy or maybe i m too lazy to blog.

1 mth since i last blogged. Things remain the same..work is the old boring routine.. Sarah and i just got better.. we seemed like an inseparatable couple. Every night without fail i have to hear her voice b4 i can get to bed. vice versa.. Her Os are around the corner, cant see her that often.. but still i will b there if she nids anythin..

meanwhile.. i juz took a knock while playing soccer juz.. some malay tripped me while i was running with the ball n my head went bang.. onto the ground. i lost concious for a while( i thot i was bleeding but it was juz nose fluid. some bruises here n there..

will blog again soon.. kinda tired.

I miss her..

2006-08-20T06:42:00.000-07:00

Today was just simply great. Sorry dear that I blogged..i just wanna pen down my feelings so that you may understand.. Haven’t been blogging due to some stuff.. It’s been sometime since I last met her and without doubt I miss her loads. Unfortunately today, it rained and the birthday surprise planned for me was cancelled. We were suppose to have a birthday picnic at east coast but ended up having dinner at parkway. She can’t stay out late either so I had to send her home today at 8. but still, I appreciate wad she has done for me. She made a Oreo cheesecake and a birthday card for me. The cake is simple sweet and great! Everything was so nice (cause its from her). Surprisingly I manage to finish the “mini-scrapbook” by today and gave it to her(took me days and nights). She claimed she was touched but she seemed emotionless.. haha but still I know she is touched. Everything has been cleared for her and I really hope she will be happy. Its been really depressing to see her moodless these few days due to her problems. ***Hey dear, I hope you will return to the old re-vitalized gal ok? Her prelims are nearing and I knew that I have to give her space and time to concentrate on her studies. I will definitely miss her everyday as we cant meet that often. Also, I hope that she will really do well for her O lvl. I can’t wait for your exams to finish so that we can spend more time together. I love you baby. –muackz-

Tanned Saturday

2006-08-12T07:08:00.000-07:00

This morning, i went to tann wit sarah at tamp. We met at around 9.30 n to our suprise, no1 was tanning(cuz its too early?) but there was sun. i manage to get tann and she also got darker(not as dark as me). -claps- effort effort~! hahaha.. we left at abt 12.15 and headed to my hse. We met aunt joyce below my block and chatted wit her a while. ha my aunt said she's a nice gal. yup its true luh. no pt denyin she is nice. sheesh.. cant praise her too much else she will .. ahem.. lol.. after which i sent her hm as she had a concert to attend wit her frens at expo. awww wad to do.. my baby is so popular, so many guys after her. haha rite sarah? danial, yx, who else huh..? haha =X alrite jokes aside..i will rmb d nude party thingy again.. - arggggg - hopes she enjoys d concert ya..

Sarah's d best.. =)

P/S: rmb my lexus biscuits.. lol

Long day.. but ..

2006-08-08T08:19:00.000-07:00

Today was really a very fun, hectic(crowded) and obviously a wonderful day spent with my dear. We met after camp at around 2.30. As usual she was late(haha I still could talk to her on my house phone and she left ur house but still I reached earlier than her) lousy.. ok jokes aside, we went to city link to purchase her slippers but ended up at Herens. She bought herself 2 Tops from Zara and I bought myself a Puma t-shirt which looked kinda cool. We went shopping till our legs were so freakin tired and headed to billy bombers at marina sq which she treated me,Marina bay was crowded, cityhall is, marina sq was too. Sheesh. The crowd juz turns me off and we didn’t see the fireworks in d end cause we wud hv a prob gg back hm if we were to stay. So yup, thou we didn’t see the fireworks today, I’m sure we will see it again soon in d near future. Dear, I really enjoyed spending my time today with her. Thanks for the treat! love ya.

i simply love her..

2006-08-03T07:44:00.000-07:00

Dear diary,

this entry is to the gal i <3.

i cant deny but to admit that i simply adore her. its not because of the feeling. its not because how much i miss her. its also not because the things she does. its the person i've fallen in love with n am in love with which makes me love her over n over again. and also its because of all d reasons above, the feeling between us( this connection nvr dies), the daily ever-lasting-misses as well as the sweet lil things she does which makes me feel so blessed. not forgetting the daily fone calls n e regular meetings. i will always noe that whenever i nid sum1, she will b there for me. i m sayin all these bcuz i'm tinkin of her rite nw. i guess this explains my day's ever-lasting-misses whenever i thought of those sweet lil nothings u did for me. gal u duno how much all these means to me. thank you for everything. i juz wanna express my thoughts in this blog. i love u.

"cant wait to cya tmr.. "

-hugz-

Time flies...

2006-07-23T06:38:00.000-07:00

Time flies, time really flies. Its been a month since I was single. In other words, today is our marks our 1 month together. She gave me a Rip curl t-shirt, candies, a sweet letter(mushy Sarah) and a pair of slippers I’ve yet to received. In return I gave her a bouquet of blue roses delivered to her doorstep, a hand-written letter, and my daily “heart”. Haha. We went to marina mandrin for lunch today. Wow it really does cost a bomb! $98+++ per pax. I’m really broke till the 9th next month. =( gotta live on bread and butter. Dear lost some money too, haiyo.. So careless! But on a brighter note, we enjoyed the outing, took pictures with my digital cam and even had champagne. =)

I really thought that her letter was real sweet and ok a lil mushy. But still I knew she meant it from the bottom of her heart. Okay I gotta be thrifty for the next month. Sheesh. Love her loads. =)

Happy 1 month dear. *winks*

tp over!

2006-07-20T07:11:00.000-07:00

Woohoo.. I passed my driving test today. I was so excited after passing it. the tester was very old, quiet and boring. But still I love him! Haha congrats lex!! Thanks everyone who have been supporting and encouraging me. Special thanks esp to dear who kept telling me I could do it. muackz. Thanks to all my NS buddies, mdms etc.. I could hardly wait to drive soon!!! After my driving, the 1st person I called was my mum. Den I sms everyone. And the 1st person whom I longed to see and met was my dear.

Woots.. haha.. today has been this great for me. Cheers lex!

Time Flies...

2006-07-09T05:18:00.000-07:00

Time flies. It seemed as the both of us were together for ages. In actual fact, it just passed 2 weeks plus… we’ve been spending meaningful time together. Other than helping her with her studies, nagging at her not to be too lazy(ahem..), we spend our time like what other normal couples do, hanging out, walking around, movies, meals, plain simple hugs and kisses. But the main thing is that we are working things well. This is so different from my previous relationships. Sarah is someone whom I can confine things to, willing to listen to me, share her problems, communicate smoothly, we give and take as well as share sweet moments together. She is just an angel in disguise.

I just came back from the airport with her. We went to have late lunch at the airport after which we went around our neighbourhood before heading her home. Hope my dear Sarah will be ok from her stomach upset. Love ya loads.

loves..

2006-06-29T23:47:00.000-07:00

After days of misses, I finally got to meet up with her. We were only free on weekends as she has to study and I’ve my NS commitments. But on Tuesday, we coincidently met on the bus on my way home from soccer. When I saw her on the bus that day, I was in total surprise. My expression was like whether to be smiling or jumping for joy. It’s like days of misses and we get to see each other. I sent her home that evening. The meeting was a unplanned happiness for the both of us.

I met her again yesterday. This time it was planned. We met at Mac, accompanied her to study and had dinner. After which, we went for a walk around the park and also to our hideout, the place we got together. This time, I thought I could start doing sweet nothings for her. Yes indeed I did something. Thou its small, but it meant my thoughts. We walked around the neighbourhood for an hour before I walked her home.
I knew for myself that this unplanned destiny is working out for me. At least I know that now, there is someone who loves me as much as I love her. This gal is someone who is sweet to me, nice and understanding. I can’t wait to see her each time we meet and for once I knew, Sarah, I love you. *hugsz*

dark skies upon i wished a star..

2006-06-26T07:47:00.000-07:00

I was walking upon the dark stars of the skies above me. A distinguish soul appeared beyond my wildest imagination. I was talking with the slightest charismatic tone, which sounded, more serious and real. In fact I was telling this girl that she is the 1 for me, and likewise, vice versa. I wouldn’t go much into detail but the answer was on my right shoulder. A blush of smile lightens the both of us as we enjoyed each other’s presence. For once I knew, we shared each other’s quiet moment.

World cup Feva..

2006-06-23T22:20:00.000-07:00

Well I suppose the topic says it all. I’m obsessed with world cup 2006 nowadays.
I’ve been sleeping at the oddest hours with the least of sleep. How precious my weekends are to me!? I realized that nothing could be as carefree and great in life than watching soccer, hanging out with my sec sch friends and love ones for meals.

As for girls, I realized that Sam thinking is different from me, as much as expected, things didn’t work out due to many factors. But surprisingly I’m not upbeat over it. She ain’t the girl for me. Life has to go on. I will be carrying on my usual life, world cup, meetin up with friends etc…

But whatever it is, right now, I need more sleep and spend more time with people I love. *winks*

alwayzlex

brotherly-weekend

2006-06-04T08:13:00.000-07:00

heyhey.. juz felt that i should blog my weekend. caught up with my 2 gd brothers ivan and eugene. i hv known them for ages and its been quite a while since we hang out together. within the 3 of us, i m usually the more soft spoken 1 compared to them.

ytd was fun, met samantha in d afternoon for shopping. wow she sure can shop. den eugene came over n find us at bugis b4 we adjourn to east coast costa sand. ivan came to meet us den. as usual he is late. we stayed at shuhui's bdae for a while even b4 d cake was cut. d 4 of us went bowling and eugene n ivan lost to me n sam 4 both games. haha.. after which we went granville for a drink n to chill as eugene was feeling kinda low and he is enlisting this thurs. hey bro, take care inside ya.. n control ur temper k. nid anything juz call d both of us. well after that i sent sam home b4 we went ivan's hse for a 3-legged mahjong. we played till 4.15 as i went home. ha i won $25 last nite. cuz d both of them were busyin smsin african frens who are up still this late..

today i woke up at 2pm. wow i really can slp. its been sometime since i slp till this late. slacked till 6 b4 meetin d same grp of ppl. went eugene hse for dinner. had a talk wit him. played wit kids. talk rubbish. took a lorry back home. haha simple n sweet. but afterall, i had a great weekend with the both of them.

timeout.

2006-05-27T21:42:00.000-07:00

Hey my friend

Happy 21st birthday.

You gotta be strong k. I know this is a tough patch in your life. But still I believe you can go through it. And with the probationary period, you should stand firm and decide whether he is the right 1 for you or whether another guy is out there waiting for you. But whatever it is, we’ll always be beside you ok? Stand strong and smile.

We all enjoyed your chalet. Thanks for inviting all of us.

And I appreciate your presence for the past 8 years of my life. Thanks for being around!! Jia You.

-This entry is for you.

A Cinderella Story

2006-05-14T23:19:00.000-07:00

It was a good day home for me. A good day home indeed. The show just ended on the television as I pondered. “A Cinderella Story”. A modern Cinderella story in fact. How sweet the tale was. The story was about a high school senior, Sam, a girl next door hoping to find her prince charming. She was often tortured by her self-obsessed step-mother and wicked step-sisters and was left a servant in the family. Cinderella was a pitiful teenage high school student with no guy admiring her. Not until one day…

It was the schools ball, “Princeton”. Sam finally finds her single social life turned into a fantasy when she meets her prince online. But however her anonymous cyber mate eventually turns out to be her high school popular quaterback, Austin. Sam’s step sisters were also in love with Austin but however he did not take notice of them. Sam had to sneak out of her house to the ball dressed with a mask and she has to be back home by 12. And so happened Austin and Sam fell in love during the ball. However, Sam had to leave at the stroke of midnight leaving her cell phone just before the clock strikes midnight.

Thereafter, fearing that her secret would be exposed, Sam hides away from Austin. Fortunately for fate, they eventually met as Sam and Austin not Cinderella. But the meeting was a bad one. The secret was wrongfully exposed in public, leaving Cinderella in tears. Finally, just before the last throw of the football game, Austin decides to choose love instead of glory as he went for Sam. And after all other efforts, they lived happily ever after.

A romantic story indeed to share with all. Thou it’s an old show, but I’m sure every one hopes to find their Cinderella and Prince Charming and live happily ever after. Every one of us would be impatient to know who lives besides us for the rest of our lives. Life in the modern society isn’t that simple as a fairy tale. Many complex matters and contradictions. As for me, how I wish for a Cinderella story to unfold upon me. May I pray for a simple and ordinary fairy tale to sparkle in my life.

Busy lexus busy me.

2006-05-10T03:43:00.000-07:00

Not really busy, just plain lazy. haha.. yup.. My upper study is gonna ORD soon and tmr is his last day before he gonna clear his leave. i hope i can do his job well.. For the past few days, i haven been really slping well and having enough slp. I really need a weekend for me asap. I woke up 2 days ago realising dat i've been disfigured. ha oh no!!. shall not elaborate. ha..

i recalled in my prev blog entries i did blog sth about my gd fren siya and edmund, and here m i again talkin to another of my fren, sam with the same issue. why r guys so fickle nowadays. ha thou i admit i m fickle at making decisions at times. but still i still have my conscience to reflect on. guys treating gals as like barbie dolls. play them when u r happy. throw them when u had enough. or prehaps its more of bad self control. guys always uses gals unreasonable ways as an excuse to get the better of them. and gals reluctantly agrees. seriously gals will get hurt badly. i strongly feel that we guys shud treat their gf as sum1 to adore n treasure n not allowing lust to overwhelm. Its just not right.

Getting into a r/s nowadays aint easy. so many factors and considerations to understand. if 1 day i were to really rediscover the feeling which i lost 1 yr + ago, i will sincerely treasure the gal, n not allowin history to repeat itself. Honestly, from couples to marriage aint easy. nonetheless frens to lovebirds. but i hope d right 1 will appear.. haha..

this is too serious.. aint me... but when i m serious i m serious. haha ok.. enough thoughts, bad minds n stressful ideas. time to relax. Off i go to enjoy.

p.s to sam, i'll b supportin ya to the finish line. u go gal!

lex

Back

2006-04-10T09:00:00.000-07:00

Its been sometime since I blog. My schedule has been hectic and packed with driving lessons, meeting up with friends and daily NS routine. Lets talk about driving.

Driving has never been better. Fun as it seemed, dangerous it may perceive. Actions speak for itself. I almost got into an accident last Saturday. I headed for a right turn without stopping and turned with gear 4. This caused the 2 other cars from opposite direction to force into an emergency brake. Obviously I was freaked out. My instructor and I then couldn’t contain our laugher. Sheesh.. Instead of stopping down we were laughing at my recklessness. I got to be more serious from my next lesson onwards.

Presently, my same old right eye start to swell again. I’m on 2 days mc hoping for it to heal by itself. There is like some heavy object pulling your eyelid down. Kinda gross? But that’s wad I’m in now.

About my NS life. Nothing much thou. I don’t dislike my officer as much as I used to. Maybe because I was furious at that period of time. But I still hold the same perception of my upper study. He is a weird person. Maybe different in personality and character wise.

My sec school friends are still around playing soccer with me, hanging out on weekends etc.
Overall, my life is great.

sighz..

2006-03-10T08:58:00.000-08:00

Today, Friday March 10th. I was screwed by my warren officer badly. I shall not mention his name For a reason which I find it so frustrating. First things first, he reprimanded, scolded me before finding out the actual fact from both parties. He sucks. This is wad he said to me. “Lexus, I heard from someone that you have not been learning well from your upper study. And also I don’t like your attitude on looking on how easy things works. ” Which implies I’ve not been doing my work. I’m damn mad at him. This warren isn’t even my direct superior. Who in the world is he to comment on my work. Just by hearing from a source? This is bullshit. He even asked me to write what I’ve learnt down on a notebook. This is fucked up. And if I fail to comply, he would charge me. Firstly, I cannot tolerate his fucked up attitude. Next, I’m going to call SAF hotline for this bullshit.
In my own section, Alina is the person who told him. Chee Wee is my upper study. Honestly, what my upper study has taught me is very superficial. Very theoretical. And I have hardly chances to put into practice. I’ve yet to tell my superiors about this because I don’t want to betray my upper study. However, I get bombarded for not learning. Additionally, I’m not boasting around but I’m always just playing with my upper study that this is easy to pick up. To be honest, it may sound a little arrogant. But I’m just joking around. Moreover, my upper study is someone who gets afraid of arrows easily and starts to panic. However, I’m the opposite, I will still remain calm even I have a heavy workload. Maybe that’s why people in my section sees me as taking tasks too easily. As a warren officer, his own wrong judgment of listening to 1 person’s perception isn’t sufficient. He doesn’t bother about others feelings and begins to reprimand. This is not what a superior cum subordinate relationship should be. Such actions I can’t put up with any further. He should just mind his own business and F*** off. Period. Enough said. Time to call SAF hotline. Ciaoz.

A memorable experience.

2006-02-27T08:35:00.000-08:00

A memorable experience is something, which every individual hopes to experience. It means a feeling, which can never be forgotten for life. A feeling, which is unexplainable by words. Stepping into her shoes, as you walked out of the backstage to the grand foreground, fans cheering you upon, loud noises and fantastic atmosphere. This sensation is simply great. Most importantly, it’s not about winning the competition. It’s about being able to get an achievement from it and I believe my friend has achieved what little commoners have never dreamt of. Being a campus superstar at the tender age of 16.

Just before the results are being released, I prayed rather hard that she would make it through. But unfortunately, god didn’t answer my prayers. No worries my friend, I hope she will strive for better results next time around. Jia you Evon! She must have been demoralized. May she recover. And lastly, thanks Evon for the tickets and thank her whole family for sending me home tonight. Its my first time to watch live telecasts of such competition.

Alright, time to sleep. Good luck to me for tomorrow’s presentation. Good Night all.

yawnz..

2006-02-22T06:04:00.000-08:00

Well. I been asked by sum1 to blog as I’ve not been doing so. I’m lazy to blog, realizing that there isn’t much to write about.

First thing first I wanna apologise for my absurd attitude towards siya the day before. I’m sorry. Today I had a presentation and the officers was rather pleased by my efforts. And oh sheesh I got arrowed by mdm Tina to do more presentations. After the presentation I was rather tired. I guess I was having flu and doing the presentation. So I guess I’m a little sick at the moment. I hate having phlegm. Have to drink lots of water to clear my throat. Irritating throat is killing me. I’m going to sleep very early tonight in a non-aircon room. No exercise for me for a week. I need some rest.

Alright I’m off for now. Good nite Journal.

Phew.. what a weekend..

2006-02-12T06:17:00.000-08:00

Yesterday morning, I went Bedok to swim with yuhang in the morning. I woke up pretty early about 8 and met him at 10. as expected, he was late as always. Swum had lunch and went over to his house to change. I brought him to my church thereafter.

Yesterday’s service was rather a meaningful one I would like to share with all. The service was about BGR. Nope, not boy-girl relationship, but Building Good Relationship being with anyone. Having a good relationship means having someone whom you can trust and be true to. I realized that for me, I do not have someone whom I can do so. Having someone whom you can talk to and share thoughts are few of the sweetest things one can ever experience. I felt that I’ve many good friends, many close friends, few best friends. However, there are only a few I could share heart-to-heart feelings. I’ve realized the importance of accepting my friends for who he or she is, for a friend is one who comes in when the whole world has walked out. It is a blessing that you can be stupid with your friends. Pastor mentioned about Christians should love one another as much as we love god, then true relationship can be established. Hence a good relationship of friends can only be build upon in church. However, I felt as long as I could accept my friend’s for who he or she is, and making him feel that I’m being a good friend towards him, then, if he feel likewise, a true friendship can too be established regardless of religion. I hope I’m right. God has made me realized that this way of treating friends is a form of respect and being a good and humble Christian.

Today, I met up with the similar bunch of church friends from my care group. It was a decent and happy outing. Honestly, I enjoy hanging out with this group of people. After Care group, I met yuhang and we went searching for his valentines’ day gift and proceeded to orchard after which to support his sister, Yvonne. When I saw his sister sing on stage, I felt rather proud of her. Someone whom can do what she wants and enjoy. Likewise, I hope that I can do something I really want to do and experience. I pray that she can achieve success. Good luck to you Yvonne tomorrow.

Many things in life I’ve yet to discover. Apparently, there are too many things to be found. Upon this route, I hope god can enlighten me and guide me through my life. In god’s name I pray. To all my friends, I love you all.

Best weekend..

2006-02-05T04:42:00.000-08:00

On the Friday 3rd Feb after work, I went off gym at Tampines. The crowd there puts me off. Have to wait for every single work machine. Gosh I’m exhausted after gym. After gym, Eugene, Ivan, Meishan and Huixian came over to my place at 10.30pm to check my new house out. Its been long since we 4 met up and I’m glad that we did that night. I love their company and laughers. After my place, we went up to Ivan’s house, and played mahjong. Surprisingly, Huixian and I won Ivan and Eugene. But I guess they gave into us. Went Macdonalds for supper and went back up to Ivan’s house for another session of cards. I must say I really enjoy getting back to the old days of us 3 spending time together. Thanks brothers! I left at 4am.

The next day, I had to wake up at 10.30am to Mr Tan’s house for Chinese new yr gathering. I’m happy to see everyone gather at Mr Tan’s house. Guys includes Yuhang, Daniel, Tianhua, Haoming, Mingyou, Minghong, Me. Others are Junel, Steph, Caroline, Meishan, Shimin. Everyone was having fun at blackjack but it was the bankers who had the last laugh except me. The Sunday girls and Daniel won the most and I was left being the biggest loser. Haha but most importantly, everyone’s was having fun. And minghong I will remember him for taking oranges from Mr Tan’s house and giving back to him. =)

After Mr Tan’s house, the girls left and us guys expect mingyou, went over to Yuhang’s house to visit. Upon reaching his house, I saw his sister Yvonne, the campus superstar finalist. I was just lost for words, because I liked her eversince she sang “Zai Yi Ci Yong You” She fits the song! Yup!.. I didn’t talk much to her, maybe I was too shy hah. I just took a couple of photos.. 6 to be exact....my friends, please support her.. haha..good luck for the next round evon.. The rest of us , played mahjong and winning eleven watched soccer match till the next morning.. Everyone was having so much fun. All of us were crapping and enjoying. How I wished the moment will stay and the fun won’t end. We had a fun time together. Tianhua, Minghong and I slept overnight at Yuhang’s house.

All in all, I must say that this is 1 of the most memorable weekend I had for so long! I wish that all my friends will be part of my life and I hope this company will never end!!
Love you all my friends. Sec school rocks. I will never forget each and everyone of you!!!!

God bless..
lex

untitled.

2006-01-21T06:15:00.000-08:00

After today service, I realize the importance of blogging and reflecting oneself. It’s like thinking it out on what happen today and what has happened for the past few weeks. At first, I wasn’t into believing god. But there are signs of belief and that he is there for me. I was glad I made the right choice last year.

Today, pastor Shirley mentioned about utilizing the time we Ns people have in the army and fully make the best out of it. I felt likewise. Another concern about me is that I’m still unable to put my past relationship behind me. No, its not that I still like my ex but I was tormented and hurt by her then till a phobia is created. There has been this shadow of great disbelief overpowering within my self-confidence. Right, today someone whom I’d a liking for replied my message in an extent that it’s exactly similar to the attitude of my ex. I know it’s a miscommunication or misunderstanding but this shows that we might have communication problems. Yup. Communication and trust are the main ingredients in maintaining a relationship. Ultimately, I must admit that we have a communication misunderstanding because we differ. I’m not taking my NS commitment as an excuse but the main concern is because of my past. I’m afraid, scared of knowing and discovering a new partner, a companionship. Sadly speaking, I’m frightened to try. Oh god, I wouldn’t want a second person whose love I give shall not get in return. And for all I give, returns in despair. Here am I reading my ex’s blog, she has had other guys after me. I realized what a fool am I to have a girlfriend like her before. Almost exactly a year has gone, forgotten are the feelings I had for her. Memories lived the pain and a demoralized path.

Sigh, for all the sins I made, must have created this dark shadowed eclipse on me. Looking back, I realize I couldn’t commit no more. Maybe the right one hasn’t arrived. Or maybe the one whom has arrived has gone. Most importantly, I pray that 1 day the eclipsed phobia will be lifted with a bright sunshine.

Sign off.lex

hehe... good old me..

2006-01-10T07:36:00.000-08:00

life's full of ups and down. and indeed it was. remember my previous post? i was harshly punished for my negilence. but, i got posted out of that unit. and guess what? haha all my extras became goners. haha. wads better is that my new unit, is much much nearer my hse! cool eh? selarang camp at upper changi road. where i live? tampines. heh heh. upon i received this news, i called my mum, dad, told all my fellow colleagues at ayer rajah. my friends outside. i was over the moon. i kept smiling the whole day and oh thank god it its near my hse and i m going there being clerk. hah slack vocation i hope? =p tmr is my first day n i hope i will do well. ;) alrite. i shall update more on my new vocation tmr. =)

Just pure bad luck

2005-12-26T05:37:00.000-08:00

What a bad day it has been for me. X’mas supposedly to be joyful, pleasant, fun and filled with smiles. However, X’mas for me spells sorrow and sadness. Just this very moment, I’m hungry yet I do not have the appetite to eat. I’m also tired, but I do not have the mood to sleep. Apparently, I’m relentless to brood. God please help!

I lost my wallet and keys while playing soccer. I’m still uncertain whether I misplaced it or it was stolen. Its very unlikely that I get back my wallet because my 11B’s address is not updated to my present new addresss.

Although it’s just a wallet, it is an X’mas gift from Pamela and Karen. I’m not depressed over this. It is the content of my wallet, which I’m feeling so low. In my wallet contains, SAF 11B, SAF Ez link card, and trainee pass. These 3 main items has cost me 14 weeks of my precious weekends and holidays. In other words, I’ve to sign 14 confinement and guard duties. I’m already broke till my next pay and I lost $60 and my ATM card. I doubt I will have time to go to the bank for a replacement.

Thou dismal and gloomy my days passes and search efforts in vain, I still appreciate Ritesh and Yuxiang in helping me to search my lost belongings. Thanks guys for helping.

I shall brood over it for sometime but i shall not shed a tear.

Signs off

BMT over.

2005-12-15T06:49:00.000-08:00

Looking up the skies. Searching for the sparkles of orion. I solemnly miss everyone whom belonged to the memorable 7 weeks experience with me.

The first few days of my block leave was boring indeed. Without the songs and cheers of orion, I lived the hours missing everyone. You guys rocks.

Today, I played almost 7 hours of soccer. Pure exhausting. Nevertheless, I enjoyed every single bit of it. As of Tomorrow, I will be posted to a new unit. A new environment, a new surrounding to adapt. I hope its not too far and not too bad. Surely wishing for the stars. Hah. Somewhere near my house would do fine. Maybe I wouldn’t mind posting back to Tekong, or somewhere bedok or changi. However, only a few vocations will suit me. Well, pray as I will. =D

I’ve been this busy everyday. Going out, tiring myself out. Phew! To be honest, even if I have a girlfriend, I wouldn’t have the time to talk to her. I just realized, its not good to have a girlfriend now, unless I have a very slack vocation and also, standard at least selina la. =p jk. Anyway, thank you for who you are, for accompanying me when I’m bored and trying to live the tough hours in Tekong. Thank you orion company!

My block leave is ending soon. A new unit beckons.

sick..

2005-12-03T05:57:00.000-08:00

Army life has never been this great. =) although I don’t have any good buddies in particular, everyone has been a part of my army life. I gonna miss my BMT in tekong. Sigh.

Yesterday, finally she came and fetched me from pasir ris. Haha okay, that’s sweet of her. debt repaid. Sheesh. Come to think of it, I had to carry loads of stuffs back. As a matter of fact, I’m suffering from back strains and just recovered from fever. I’m feeling super lethargic and lazy today. Oh well, I must recover from this illness, else I cant go out. Anyway, thank you for calling, else I would be bored to death. =p
Well. I shall blog more when I recover from fever and cough. Bad weekend indeed. =( blog more nx time.

so far.. so good..

2005-11-19T23:51:00.000-08:00

whew.. what a week it has been for me..

started off with field camp d whole week.. shagged myself out. thou i didnt do much.. maybe its the environmental factor which caused me to feel exhausted. i started off the week knowing that i had a drive within me. something to look forward to. my long weekend! haha which is only 2 days n sth else. lucky me i didnt get confine. my platoon mates who were smoking disobeyed the sergents and they got 3 weeks SOL. sigh for them. nx week.. which is tmr.. i m gonna hve my live range. i hope i dont misfire due to any pressure or stress.. else i'm gonna get 7 weeks SOL. SOL meaning stoppage of leave.

yest, suprisingly jolene msg me. upon receiving her sms, i felt rather disturbed and disgusted. no offence to her but ya. seems to me i cant her treat as sum1 i once knew. moreover a fren. sumtimes when ppl says, once lovers, never frens. sumtimes this can be true. shall not elaborate my ill-thoughts. period. anyway happy belated birthday to her.

adversely, yesterday was a nice day for me.. finally i could play soccer in the morning with dinesh. damn its been sometime since i met up with him. miss those days where we always go supper dude!. soccer is fun. after soccer... was suppose to mit up with yuhang at parkway to play pool n lunch. but in d end we met up for dinner only.. initially, we n the rest of d ppl wanna watch harry potter. but end up. no seats? sigh.. oh well.. there's always nx wk.

i'm booking in tonight. tmr's my live range, friday's my live grenade. i hope i do well. i still harbour penny of thoughts with regards to my ns commitments n how am i gonna spend my nx 2 years. also, i'm still waiting for my selina.. haha =)

ps: to the "anonymous" person. remember u still owe me 1 testimonial or a date. haha. u better pay up i tell u!!! ;)

Orion company rulez.

2005-11-05T02:29:00.000-08:00

National Service isn’t that boring and devastatingly screw-up as it seems. At least I get to go home every weekend with a shaved head of cuz. Haha. But come to think of it, booking out on Saturday afternoon and booking in on Sunday night is a too short period of time. Fortunately, I’m stucked at tekong for 7 weeks. 2 weeks has passed with a flash. 5 to go. Nevertheless, I enjoyed my time inside with my platoon buddies and companions. They are a bunch of funny people. Poor me. Just 2 weeks in BMT and I strained my back and twisted my right ankle. I wanna do more activities god damnit. Training is rather slack for me as I m excused heavy load and lower limb. Haha. Seems to be excused for almost all activities. No SOC, IPPT, Even field camp I get to return to bunk. But I will grow fatter if this continues. I have gained 5kgs for the past 2 weeks. Sheesh. Another change in me is that I start to use more vagularities when talking. Haha.. At least now I have something to look forward to after BMT. I miss my freedom loads. Mainland activities and my group of friends. Darn it, 6th December my Passing out day. Most importantly, not forgetting, thank you for “accompanying” me via phone or sms for the past few weeks. without ur "company" every tekong day lives in the darkness. You know who you are. Special thanks. =)

Every night during admin time, most of my bunkmates would be on the phone with their love ones and happily chatting. The remaining few which includes me, would gather and play the guitar, chat, have night snacks. Day by day, time flies and memorable experience gained. To be honest, I hope to gain something from this BMT rather than waiting for passing out day. Lex, 5 more weeks. Freedom, fun, etc.. awaits.

Miss everything on mainland. =)

Last day of blog.. =)

2005-10-20T05:55:00.000-07:00

I came back from Gold Coast 2 days ago. Realizing that the hours are numbered till I say farewell to my fellow close ones and friends. I will sorely miss the freedom and wild enjoyment I had previously. Well, what a man has to do, a man has to do. That’s to serve the country. No worries dad mum, NS is just a parcel of my life. I’m rather optimistic about my NS commitments. No hassles, no headaches, nothing to bid goodbye to.

I just wanna tell all my friends, thank you for the time spent and all the laughers and smiles we had. Especially to my secondary school friends, Eric, Yuhang, Daniel, Michael, Tian Hua, Hao Ming, Meishan, Shimin, Junel, Stephanie, Caroline, Shu hui, etc. Secondary school days were the best time of my life. I will remember it for long.

My soccer pals, thanks for the games Ritesh, you have been a great organizer. Dinesh, thanks for the supper times dude! Ashish, Hitesh, Adhnan, Alvin, u guys were hilarious. Daniel thanks for being my childhood companion till now. you’re great. Rajiv, himu, saurpb, u guys rock. Shing Guan, thanks for calling me up for games. Sonu and company, good luck for ur future endeavors. Cheers Mary land point soccer.

Thanks poly mates namely Samuel, Jing ren, Kenny and Darwin. I will see you guys in tekong. There are so many to name.

My work life then has been great too. Special thanks to Pamela, Karen, Mattew. Thank you tiffany and brother alex. Not forgetting My youngest brother Rex, and my hardworking parents.
Lastly, www.alwayzlex.blogspot.com will be down for sometime. As lex will be away from Singapore island. haha. To one and all who know me and who I left out, I will not forget you all. Love you all. =)

- Planet Surf -

2005-10-02T07:20:00.000-07:00

One fine morning, my brother woke me up. He told me that Pamela, which is his girlfriend’s sister, needed help. As I was free at that point of time, I went over to the warehouse to help. I didn’t have a clue on what was in store for me. Neither was I to know what I had to do. Upon reaching the warehouse, I realized there were tons of boxes waiting for me. I panicked. It was then the smile of Karen and Pamela warmed me. Noticeably I knew that behind their smile, they were rather anxious. Alright, I called a friend to help me out. We were struggling with the price tagging and packing of the clothes and accessories. I ended work at 2am and had to start working the next day till 7am the following day.

Then on I wasn’t into working as a retailer. Never was I having the intention to do so. Then one day, Pamela approached me to help her out. I was rather astonished by her request. There are plentiful interviewees but I was asked to do the job. I felt happy but at the same time, I was kind of pressurized. I know that I will be questioned by many on how I got the job.

Working at Planet Surf is a rather interesting and fun enjoying job. Why? Firstly, I can interact with many people, which is a good thing. Secondly, the job gives me a decent exposure of how retail life is. Unlike many other retail shops, Planet surf requires the staff to communicate with shoppers and introduce them the new surf brands from Australia, US California. And also, to let many know that this is a friendly shop.

From the start, life at planet surf is a breeze through. Then on, I realized the indistinct pressure of making sales. Karen whom is my supervisor was rather encouraging towards me in making a sale and is an excellent mentor to me. Pamela seemingly is the exact opposite. Though she seems nice and fun to talk to, She isn’t as simple as she seemed. I kept this in my heart for long and I felt that when Pamela needs you, she would be super nice to you. Otherwise, its vice versa. Not meaning bad treatment, but you don’t even feel that she cared. Maybe that’s why her sister hates her so much. I don’t have a grudge on any personnel, but I just dislike the way she is asking me for help. In the beginning, She often calls me in the very last minute to go down to the store to help out. And many of the occasions, I did just that. However, I don’t quite appreciate her way of Human Resource treatment towards me. I had to cancel my appointments just to do so. Overall she is a nice person I perceived.

During my work life at planet surf, I have met many friends and acquaintances. Many of which have been real nice to talk to. Some were rather shy and quiet. Others belonged to those window shoppers and people looking for part time jobs. I must say that its been real nice knowing all my friends and acquaintances. Thou through certain rules and regulations, I’m not allowed be friends outside of work. I’m also not allowed to hit on customers. But the most pleasant thing about the people at planet surf, is that they are pleasant to me. =)

During my last few days at planet surf, Pamela told me that many part-time job seekers are rather jealous and envious of me getting the job not them. This comment exerts further pressure on me. Many of them came to the shop and questioned me on how I got the job. I just replied I’m not allowed to say. This is because; my refusal is a secret on my relation to the boss. Pamela and Karen are rather secretive doing whatsoever and even at times things, which we know, were not supposed to be said. I guess, it’s also because of my weird relation; I’m regarded as a utility man being in the warehouse and in the store. I don’t even have a working schedule.

Alright, everything has ended, I handed my resignation. Reasons being that I have to prepare for my NS and also I’m going on a vacation to Gold coast on the 12th of October. If all of the above stated is valid, count that as a reason too then. I’m so sorry I couldn’t stay for long at Planet Surf. I’m leaving with a mind at stake. But nevertheless, I’ve gained valuable experience and utmost promises from the job. Thank you Planet Surf and thank you brother for the chance! Love you all! Cheers!

shopping..

2005-09-21T20:51:00.000-07:00

Wednesday, I met Eric 2.30pm at orchard and we went shopping. We headed to Mos Burger first and to Herens. We walked around, went into flash and splash. Gosh, the stuffs there are far much better than Rusty and about the same price. But I’ve to stay loyal to Rusty surf ware. Haha. We went wallet shop, nike and bought a shirt each at 37 degrees. I got myself a black shirt and Eric a brown. We wanted to buy a levis shirt but the shirt was too small for him. It was nice for me. But I reserved it first. I did not get it eventually. I followed Eric to locose some brand like crocodile. So expensive. A polo shirt at $99 - $100+. The only thing I liked there was the scent of the shop. I went to top man then. Stayed there for about 30mins. With a friendly sales assistant actively helping me in selecting the shirts there. Ultimately, I bought myself a yellow shirt, which the birds are so cute, and a blue sunrise shirt, which is like a beach shirt, but its all street wear all right. Shopping is so damn fun. Not that when I had to pay and pay. I already spend $50 while visiting the specialist yesterday. I spent about $100 on 2 jeans last week. Today its my sister birthday and I was thinking of treating her to dinner or buy her a present. Haha ok I need to start saving first before going to zara Eric. Sigh, i sprained my right ankle and gotta wear ankle guard. so sickening. Enough for now. off to work.

Wednesday..

2005-09-14T08:43:00.000-07:00

To be honest, when I reached home that very night after work, I sat in front of my computer and idled. Then I came online staring at the big blank screen. Staring at the opened cake box, I pondered and wondered. At last I realized. It was kind of her to drop by a cake. How thoughtful. I was touched while having the chocolate fantasy. I should buy her back something I felt.

Finally, I managed to get her contact yesterday. I contacted her and eventually we became friends instead of an acquaintance. After suntanning with alex, i met her and played pool today and had Swensens for dinner. I realized she is actually a very funny and lame girl. Haha. I cant stop laughing at her variety of jokes. Especially the Indian ones. I will remember girl! I too remembered the 7-11 incident. I enjoyed the fun and joy man. I walked her home after dinner.

Rusty is cute. erm as for the owner… erm she has to ask me herself =)

I enjoyed myself today.

Sec sch Frenz Rox..!

2005-08-25T05:11:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, i met up with meishan at parkway supposedly to make up for her absence on monday. okay she was forgiven for her absence with a treat at swensens. We enjoyed the ambience and food. Most importantly, we enjoyed each other's company. The 2 of us cant seem to stop talking. topics never runs out. she is indeed my gd fren pal.. =)

Its a wednesday. I went to novena with my parents to finalise our furniture purchases in the afternoon. Later on about 6.30, I met michael and proceed to PS. Met up with daniel , jason, yuhang, desmond. Yeah!, a guys gathering. they were trying so damn hard to get that hp from the arcade machine, but it doesnt seem possible. Money wasted. Laughs. after which we wanted to dine in at B.Boss. But.. it was closed for good. We ended up dining at fish & Co. OH DAMN.. fish again for the 2nd time in 2 days.. Eric came to meet us at 9.40pm. and we left to boat kee for a drink.. chilled out at a bar till 2am before we headed for east coast to drink and chill till 4.30am... Desmond and eric did not join us then. Honestly, the gang of us didnt stop talking, crapping, and arguing.. haha.. but i have to thank yuhang's weirdest senses to humour our laughers.. oh yea.. thanks guys for the present u all gave me. although its a bit of.. urm urm.. but the shirt's nice.. and the "additional" stuffs are.. .. funny.. haha ;) okay.. last bit of it, thank u all for a memorable day well spent! catch up again!

Cheerz!

22nd aug..

2005-08-22T10:10:00.000-07:00

Honestly, I did not enjoy my day as much as I thought I would. If only there were more people on my birthday. If only I could have huge gathers and joyful laughter. But that didn’t seem to happen. I felt there was something missing, something very different from previous years. It didn’t seem as if it was my birthday. I remembered I was attached for the past 2 years during my birthday. But however this wasn’t the case. I realized that I lack of genuine good friends around me. Frankly, I do not know to what reason was I unpleased about today. Though there were loads of sms and wishes, the atmosphere the very night was ambiguous. The necessary basics of an ordinary birthday were left missing. Perhaps I would rather stay at home and slack. I appreciate my friends’ thoughts. It was a fine gathering indeed. Thanks guys. Am I being too demanding? I’m truly glad that many remembered my birthday but I’m pessimistic over it. Children and adolescents enjoy birthday celebrations. As for Lexus, birthday celebrations will never be revived back and will be long kept in his childhood memories.

To finish, Happy birthday Lex, You’re 20! =)

me day..

2005-08-21T22:38:00.000-07:00

Jesus.. im finally 20.. i sound old.. haven been bloggin lately.. well thats because of work and i juz wanna pack my schedule tight. hehe.. so thats the excuse for not blogging often.

I was kinda suprised that people still remember that it was my birthday last nite..michael wished me so early before hand. while dinner, dad msged me a day in advance.. mz called me and chat.. was the first 1 to wish me. of course it was my xiao laopo who told her else mz won't even know.. haha den my overseas taiwan penpal wished via email. den came weiling thru sms..ok weiling i will be the first to sms u nx yr..hope she recovers fast.. =) then came samuel.. haha my 1 month older than me fren.. oh.. how sweet it is for ppl to rem ur birthday!~! went to bed.. nx morning woke up i saw wishes from shuqi and ritesh.. its been sometime since i heard from the both of them.. haha =) =) =) den came my ge men.. shan.. meeting them tonite.. lyeyee msgs too..gonna miss her when i move out.. haha.. gosh.. seems too many ppl to mention.. the most recent 1 was yuhang with a mms.. anyway thanks ppl.. alex n tj.. thanks for that clan message.

okay.. lastly.. thanks ev1.. actually i hv no birthday wishes thou.. maybe i will tink of 1 in due time.. =) luv u all..

RusTy RuSty..

2005-07-31T06:56:00.000-07:00

Its been a rusty weekend as i said. A brief introduction about Rusty. Rusty is a Surf brand from California, fancied by many in australia and america. The clothes are simply irresistable. Cool looking, what else can i say? The people i talked to there are nice, friendly, and socialable customers. Mainly i have to talk to the female customers there thats because my 2 other colleagues are females and they attends to the males. I enjoyed working there and i'll work there till my enlistment begins. Yesterday, I reached the store at 12noon, worked to 7pm and helped out from 10pm to midnight. At 12noon i was busy attending to customers wearing my icy blue kiss the devil Rusty t-shirt. Honestly, i met quite a few nice girls and talk to them. They are people who could hold a good conversation. I remembered i was recommending a necklace to a girl and an aunty was rather impressed by the necklace and was "fighting" over the last piece. However, both customers went back happily with a different peice each. *phew* At night, Pam asked me to work at the shop as in be a staff of the shop, and i agreed without hesistating.

Today, I went for work, sort of like a training session, from 5pm to 10pm. I was familar with all the stuffs they were selling because i was in charge of the stock keeping for the past month. My working hours varies and i will have to work the whole day only on weekends. As for weekdays, Its flexible. For example, tomorrow, i start work at 1pm and end at 4.30pm. Lets talk about today, A customer was buying clothes for her oversea's friend and i promptly helped her by choosing the right clothes for her friend. As a matter of fact, i even had to change into the clothes for the customer to have a actual view. I look great in the clothes i thought! Many other happenings happened at the store though and i'm rather happy that i'm a part of Rusty. Thanks Pam and Karen. Thankew Rusty!

Dilemma..

2005-07-29T11:18:00.000-07:00

The night has fallen, the skies have deepened. Here I’m chewing on a loaf of wasabi packed sauage bun for supper. Appetite should be on a low but however; I seem to be chewing the food without much hassle. I’m quite disappointed in myself for rushing into matters. Nevertheless, I’m moving on. Ultimately, I’ve to be strong in the inside. Setbacks are meant to be taken seriously as a lesson and not as a demoralizing factor. I understood that feelings between human beings couldn’t be forced. Hence I chose to alternate my thinking. I’m puzzled.

The dilemma here is whether to persue or to remain as it is.. I’m a very realistic person. I do not want the opposite party to be fond of me because she’s touched by my actions. Most importantly, the person must be interested for who I am. Maybe this is why falling in love is so god damn difficult. Presently, I’m taken aback by her words. I am glad that I didn’t lead myself on, or saying the wrong stuffs to the friend of mine. So what’s next on my “to-do list”? Of course friends are there to be, talks are meant to continue. I guess I have just got to take it to my stride and re-think. I know this sounds confusing. I guess god’s right, let nature takes it course. If it’s meant to be, it will be, if it’s never meant to be, no matter how hard you try, it will never be.

I guess again.. I guess this is just life. A life full of dilemmas and obstacles. I smiled. :)

Take care lex.

thanks.

2005-07-28T08:46:00.000-07:00

Thursday 28th July, Woke up rather late about 12.30pm. Followed mum to Katong to shop for ideas on decorating our new house. At Katong, i had a hair-do while my mum had a hair wash. Its the first time i hang out with my mum. Its nice thou to spend your free time with your mum.
At night, my sis asked me out to parkway for delifrance dinner. We went to marks & spens after dinner, bought a few goodies and went to her house beside parkway to chill out with her friends. I was busy there teaching her how to use the computer.. haha.. Tomorrow i'll be out.. i hope that the outing will b an enjoying one. most importantly, i be interested in the outing.

Till tomorrow..

phew.. busy me..

2005-07-26T09:21:00.000-07:00

Recently, i havent been slacking as much as use to. i woke up at 11am yesterday and headed for the polyclinc for 2 purpose. I had a sore throat and have been coughing. secondly, i wanted to see a specialist about my acne-bacteria face. okay.. it isnt that serious. Then, meishan called me to meet up for lunch and shop for birthday presents for shimin and her other friend. She bought a wallet for shimin and famous amos cookies for her other friend. During lunch we were having lots of fun joking and laughing our heads off. That day, Tian hua was suppose to arrange for an outing but he mysteriously couldnt come in contact. After meishan had to return home for tution class, i rushed home to change and took a bath. rushed to the bus stop and waited for bus 12 to outrum. I thought i would be late, end up had to wait for Junel. She sure look different with her specs. but its nice. We travelled to PS and watched wet dreams 2. Its hilarious indeed. Especially the guy's weird farting habit. haha. But on a whole, a nice day out with her, had long chats with her. Shockingly as it may seem to me, i slept at 12.45am last nite.

The next day which is today, i suprisingly woke up at 8.45am. I went online and chatted with my friends at melbourne and played online games till 2pm. Thereafter, i went to Changi Hospital for my facial checkup with the specialist. Gosh just by talking to the specialist and listening to her advices cost $60 without government subsidy. I paid only $20. The medication cost $15. I'm going broke soon. After which, Accompanied by my mummy and aunt, we rushed down to SP for my graduation ceremony. It was a heartfelt ceremony. i was hugged by my mummy n aunt for graduating with a diploma. They mentioned that they long wished to be like me graduating with a certificate. Thanks mum n aunt joyce. We went dinner at parkway foodcourt before i met eric and sheena at parkway gerlare. I didn't have much appetite and hence i ordered a small portion. After Gelare, We wanted to head home, but we just ajourned for a car spin to fullerton. Eric suggested for a chocolate timeout at esplanade. He drove us there. I sure thank god for having eric as my long time buddy ever since primary 1. which is 13 years of friendship. He drove me home first before sheena. We had so much to talk about. Simply cant stop talking. From my stuff to his running girl. Hey eric.. quick approach her during her runs. else like what sheena said, we will be doing funny stuff haha.. jokes. anyway. Tiring but eventful day! Cheers!

memories

2005-07-22T01:26:00.000-07:00

Its the 22nd of July.. exactly 1 month before...
The days of my stay at this beautiful Mary Land Park are numbered. I'm leaving this memorable place for a new life elsewhere. Gone are the days where my friends and i played soccer. Gone are the times where studying were our gathers. But for memories they lived. The place i'm leaving is a Mary Land Park indeed.

I've started my packing-up and clearing of my belongings. There i stood in front of my drawer and found several "memories" and unnecessaries. Bad memories there were i had to clear.. I found lots of movie tickets, letters, CDs, notes, vouchers, bottles of folded paper stars and a pair of rings. These are to forgo because i longer no feelings for these. I dumped them. yay!!Then i saw SHE posters, CDs, Birthday cards, xmas cards and other greetings and presents. I smiled. These will always be with me. Among all, i was smiling widely at the cards. My Fky friends namely felix, freddrick, wilson, etc.. , sec sch friends such as a crayon coloured card from junel was lovely! I had cards and letters from my pen pals from taiwan. They were great. Not forgetting my poly mates sam jr sheena etc... Thanks you all for being part of my life, or i should say memories.

Memories are meant to be kept and lived as the second tickles. Although some memories have to be forgotten, i will never forget those who deals me with a smile. Happy as it may be, i hope that i may re-lived these memories with my friends, companions and buddies
Cheers to all!

work work..

2005-07-17T09:45:00.000-07:00

hi blog.. i've been working for my brother's gf's sista shop.. help doin stocks.. setttin up the store n stuff.. kinda tired lately.. ha.. n i took half of my pay out to buy products frm d shop.. bcuz d designs is really cool.. d brand.. rusty.. i bot 2 tops n a satchel.. heez.. love d satchel lots. gonna wear d tops soon.. anw.. i tried playing soccer yest.. i ran lots.. n my back starts to hurt.. as such.. i hv to turn to pain killers.. sigh.. spondylosis indeed.. i had jack's place yest wit mum n dad.. den i went to play pool wit my bro n his frens.. sheesh i been kinda close wit my bro lately.. i lost to his fren n i had to punch d table.. .. oh well it happens.. today i woke up kinda early n helped my parents at the song writing competition till 6.. after that i came hm n slept d till 9. was tired.. woke up.. played warcraft.. chatted with lotsa frens.. n manage to keep in contact wit junel.. ok shall hang out 1 day.. without bahang.. take care lots ppl..

Spinal disc fracture

2005-06-29T09:02:00.000-07:00

Speakin about back strains.. slip disc... wadeva.. the root to the probs is bcuz i had a fracture in between my spinal disc( there is no cure for it).. d doc says no more strainous exercise or any form of workout which involves the bendin of my back.. in other words.. i cant bend my back. our spine is made up of bones which are known as discs. a pair of disc are joint together by 2 other bones.. which are the "legs" to support one another. the fracture means that 1 of the "leg" is broken. its in the L3 of my spine. this fracture has caused my legs to feel weak at times. back strains.. aches.. hip problems.. etc.. if i don't stop exercising.. the other "leg" might break n eventually.. the pair of discs are without "legs".. oh brother! that sucks.. Even if the fracture "leg" is healed. it will not be as strong as b4.. so.. ddoc says.. do not take any chances.. stop soccer. =( then i tot for a moment.. its lyk wantin my life.. i cant play soccer.. =( soccer-less .. but.. alwayz look on the bright side of life lex. u can still do other stuffs besides sports.. ha.. all i could tink of is slp wk up.. movies.. shopping.. computer.. work? maybe.. depends.. could be..

take care lex! wish u a speedy recovery.. ( if there is a recovery....... )

blogging again!

2005-06-28T20:38:00.000-07:00

okok.. enuf of complains.. ha.. meishan said i din blog.. huixian says i'm a pig too lazy.. sunshine threaten me not to visit unless i blog.. sheesh.. ok ok!! chill.. i m blogging for good.. =)

today is the 29th of june.. oh.. its lyeyee's birthday.. gonna wish her soon.. n i gotta go specialist appointment ltr at 2 wit the company of my aunt joyce.. how kind of her.. but sux.. the doc fee i gotta pay for myself!!.. sigh.. stupid back.. lousy back.. main cause its me kickin the ball too much straining my lower back muscle.. ok.. gonna go see wad the doc says..

basically nth much happened to me.. watched lotsa movies.. such as batman.. mr/mrs smith.. been in d pool table wit yuhang , my bro alex n company.. went to celebrate weiling's birthday for her.. sorta juz buy her dinner.. so happy for my gemen that she is finally attached.. for good? lex ah lex.. ermm.. now's not the time for relationship lex.. ..bcuz.. i see ppl such as my liwen mei.. broke up wit her bf.. take care gal ;) ok.. i shall cont blogging once i seen the specialist ltr.. ciaoz..

blogging..

2005-06-08T07:52:00.000-07:00

back to blogging business... back recovering!!.. gd sign.. cant do too much exercise.. went swimming n realised dat my left leg din hv enuf strength to swin.. =p.. been playing warcraft lately.. doin nth ba.. today juz went orchard with eric n his fren to watch downfall.. d show kinda boring.. but i cud understand wadz happening.. cuz i luv history =) tmr i guess gonna go out .. den on friday attends fren wedding.. sat celebrate xian.. xiao laopo's belated bd.. ha.. kinda sian to blog nowadays.. back for more nx time den.. ciaoz..

acupuncture..

2005-05-30T08:06:00.000-07:00

duno whether i spell it corrrectly.. yup.. acupuncture.. dat needle thingy.. sounds scary in d 1st place.. d sight of thousands of needles enterin my body.. nah ain't that scary.. onli 7 needles went into my lower back. after which d doc sorta added velocity into the needles. kinda "tickle" wen d doc inserted d needles.. but it ain't hurt after all =) after acupuncture, the physician sorta rubbed my back.. wow that hurts n tickles haha.. lastly came d "cup" thingy.. its lyk 7 d physician placed 7 cups on my back n suck air pressure into my back allowing free blood to flow. den i juz left the clinic.. still painful.. wen i went hm.. took my medicine n fell dead on d bed.. woke up abt 8+9 haha.. its tiring alrite.. what a fine acupuncture day! exclaimed.

vesak day/soccer-less

2005-05-23T02:34:00.000-07:00

well well.. had to help my dad for vesak day at suntec.. so din hv much time to blog.. =P vesak day was fun.. songs.. carnivals.. etc.. but i juz had to help out in the miking logistics u drums.. however d drums had been called off due to the rain.. rehearsal for nth.. bt anw.. had fun there.. had fun catchin things up wit my temple frens.. saw my ex( not jolene of cuz) there.. haha kinda bad huh me? haha nah la..

today.. evening ritesh asked mi down for soccer.. well.. at 1st i said i cant.. but.. feelin bored.. i tot i juz try stretching my back while playing.. but.. sigh.. 1 stretch too much.. n i cant play.. =( when can i start playin again man.. m i being too impatient? my back din feel well so i juz went hm while my frens stayed n chat.. haiz.. if my back problem persist.. guess i ain gonna play soccer animore..

i wana do more stuffs.. than juz stayin at hm.. tv.. or either that go out.. soccer-less i guess 1/2 of my life is down.. but.. i shall be optimistic.. i can do other stuffs than soccer.. but wad? shall go out wit eric n co. tmr n plan stuffs.. havin a lykin towards sum1 lately n .. having a gf nw ain that bad.. at least i can devote my 100% time n commitment to her.. but enterin NS in sept.. so.. guess i will juz................

take care lex get well soon..

...
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....... i wanna play soccer...!

another day at hm.. =(

2005-05-18T07:23:00.000-07:00

the title says it all.. another day at hm =( yepz.. another boring day.. i woke up at 12+.. went online.. n started to chat wit weiling frm 12+ all the way to 7.55pm.. haha wow.. lyk wad she said.. chattin marathon indeed.. nva chat wit sum1 tat long for sure.. d laz time was wit shuqi at 5 hrs plus i guess.. was wonderin wad n i weiling chatted.. crapz.. nonsense.. all sorts la.. seem to click.. yupz =) we also ironically left testimonials for each other haha.. was playin tft wit phillip n lost 5 games straight.. sheesh.. bad luck.. damn.. frm tmr onwards gotta be at suntec helpin out my dad in d vesak day celebration thingy.. damn.. at 7.55pm.. i left for pool .. met up wit ritesh n yuxiang.. whom hv moved out frm d estate.. haha things still d same as usuall.. among d 3 i m d onli 1 single.. n thanks guys for tellin mi at parkway end up u guys were at katong.. had to mk mi walk.. yupz.. talked with weiling on d fone frm parkway to katong.. we played till 10pm.. left the place.. ritesh n i walked hm frm katong.. aww. sadly.. all d memories gonna juz leave us.. both are my childhood pals.. soccer pals frm young.. gonna miss em... =( reached hm at 10.15pm.. took a shower n here m i typin my blog..

ok.. ciaoz

lex

sigh.. back problem worsen..

2005-05-16T06:19:00.000-07:00

yest.. 8am woke up.. sufferin a back injury n played a soccer match for my fren's team.. end up lost 6-0.. wow.. after the game.. i cud hardly stand straight.. my back sux.. walked home from the field.. shall not mention too much abt the game.. got trashed.. =( worse still.. stupid back problem..haiz..

when i reach hm.. i bath.. applied sum medication.. n sat down.. after i sat up.. i cud hardly straighten my back.. i hunched my way to bed n lied down.. still pain.. cud hardly slp as well.. woke up.. went online n slack.. sigh.. no more pain killers.. tink i shud realli stop playin soccer le.. haha shud hv heed shuqi's advice.. toopid lex... toopid.. nw juz hope my back will stop hurtin dat much.. stayed at hm d whole day.. sigh.. looks lyk i hv to stay at hm for sumtime.. back realli strainin.. killin me..

i wanna get outta the pain!! =(
sobz..

lex.

back problem

2005-05-14T03:05:00.000-07:00

woke up today feeling vv tired.. abt noon rajib asked mi to play for his team tmr n training at 2pm ECP. i sorta collided with him during training and my back is starting to feel the strain again.. sigh.. today soccer for my team wasnt that fun.. slack with the team a while b4 my new fren drove me home.. he lives the condo nx to me. tmr 9am match.. sheesh gotta wk up that early.. n worse still only get to play 45mins.. kinda shittie huh payin $8.50 for 45mins.. oh well..

wen i reach hm frm soccer.. realised tat i had to go to the temple for sum vesak day briefing.. shucks!.. all tired all frm soccer still hafta go for briefing.. but wad to do.. hafta help my dad out..

ok sam.. stop complaining man.. here m i updating my blog!!.. sheesh! why not u get urself a blog n write sth? lol.. ok.. juz hope tat i cud catch things up with all my frens b4 my NS.. cheerz ppl! =)

boring dayy...

2005-05-11T00:40:00.000-07:00

yest day.. was kinda bored.. whole dayy slack at hm.. do nth.. at nite abt 10pm.. went nite cycling alone.. frm my hse all the way to bedok jetty.. haha.. d wind rox.. so quiet n peaceful.. luv the feelin.. as i cycle i see lotsa happenning.. well u noe.. bbq parties.. couples kissin.. pubs.. went pass the food center but did not get myself a drink.. i was tinkin of cycling all the way to the end but.. i will not reach hm b4 midnite den.. i reached bedok jetty at 10.45.. was kinda bored.. so called my xiao laopo to tok.. ha.. at 1st she sounded so worried why was i at east coast.. tot sth happened to me.. actually no la.. i juz nid a breather.. nx time if i m bored.. east coast i m headin to.. i chatted wit xiao laopo till abt 12.30 den went hm.. wow.. been long since i spoke to her.. ok la. lotsa stuffs to catch up on.. den came hm.. took a shower.. went for supper came back for soccer.. .. sheesh.. 1st time i bet against the team i support.. n i won.. haha chelsea won 3-1.. wtf? man utd suck.. oh well. the man utd era is dead.. tats all for nw.. updatin when i reach hm frm soccer ltr.

brand new start..

2005-05-03T09:03:00.000-07:00

Hello frens.. welcome to the freshy baked, brand new lexus's blog. 4 more mths b4 NS, im bored.. hence.. alwayzlex.blogspot.com has revived it colours. n i hope.. it will revitalise my spirits now.. kinda been in a low spirit nowadays.. slackin.. doin practically nth evdae.. kinda hate my life nw.. i gt to noe this gal of late n she sorta turn a cold shoulder on me. we started off chattin lyk long lost frens.. n hit off well. but.. ever since sunday. she told me she became into a diff person.. was wonderin whether is it mood swing. she told me that her mum confiscated her hp. n ever since den.. we seldom chat. is she ok or is she avoidin me? on monday. i sorta called her up in d afternoon n she sounded strange. din tok much n she juz hang up on me. dat nite.. she was busy with "personnal things" so i did not bother her much.. den b4 she went offline she said this.. "lex.. i juz hope everything is fine even thou its not. tc n gd nite." den on. i did not hear frm her. i dropped an email n smsed her. but to no avail. the following day, i found out that she deleted mi from frenster n only allowed ppl within her to send msgs to her. i beginnin to wonder.. wadz with the 360 change in her. 1 possibility i cud not rule out is she has been grounded by her parents n her parents has seized her possession online n offline. otherwise, she prob cud be avoidin mi. i kept tellin myself its possibility no.1 but.. there is a high possiblity of no.2 . ironically, i hv been troubled by this.. hope evthing will return to normal after her exams. but.. this is d 1st time this has happened. previously, my frens will tell mi not to msg them n stuffs.. but this happened so aruptly. sth is wrong. okay..

nx up.. on monday.. siya came online n i had a 'decent' chat with her.
i spoke to her rgd edmund.. n told her dat she trusted the wrong person.. i gave her a choice of whether to choose me as a fren or edmund. she chose both. okay. i finally gave up on her.. i use to help her a lot.. gave faith in her.. talk her out.. advisin her n stuffs.. even stood up for her wen edmund(her ex) tried to bully her.. but.. silly me bein too busybody.. she gave lots of promises to me sayin she wud try to forget edmund.. wudnt wanna patch with him n stuffs.. but its all a lie.. she still has the desire within her.. ok.. i hv no feelings for her btw.. n i guess this is how it ends.. i told her.. sorry.. ever since she told mi on the fone when edmund is around.. not to bother about this matter.. she is no longer my fren. period. i went thr so much trouble scoldin edmund n stuffs.. helpin my ex gave him a piece of her mind.. n siya juz told me not to bother.. fine. since she luvs to be controlled by edmund.. plz cont. i hv no say. n lastly. to all the gals out there. if u feel ur bf or whosoeva is tryin to manipulate u.. control u..posses u.. play around with u.. F*** him upside down n give him the boot!. enuf said.. cuz of this.. my mood ain gd.. 1st time i juz throw awy a frenship lyk this. i hope siya learns a valuable lesson from this lost frenship.

signs off..
lex